To be honest.. we kinda sucked.. coz everythin was soo last minit.. bass and all.. but BUT~!! We still managed to have a good time.. just banging our socks off.. I played a wrong riff and fazli on bass followed me.. ahakz.. all wrong... my endind for "In The End" cocked up.. all went wrong.. Black forgot the lyrics for In "The End".. Grace forgot lyrics and went early.. Marc's voice went off a bit.. khehe...all die.. butstill we finished it.. a bad impression on others? well, i just knew we diddit.. people make mistakes.. i made a few.. and i admit.. i was a nervous wreck on stage.. cannot make it.. i didn't think i smiled once..  well, maybe only a few times i faced front.. khehe..

   But, it was all for good clean fun and exposure.. we'll get our break soon.. no worries.. that's a start for everyone... I didn't wanna drink but then.. temptation took over me... and i tell ya, the gurls ova there are daym HOT.. but they're chinese ah.. no offence but i juz can't seem to like chinese gurls.. as a fren as someone i juz normally go out with then it's not a problem at all.. i juz can't see my self goin steady.. okay set.. on ah... i juz came back from the gig.. ade sikit minum .. i seriously didn't wanna but... don't know nothin...

   G:nyte everyone... dead tired..~~

If you're afraid to love a person
because of friendship, you have two choices, either tells
what you feel and let the love take place or hide
the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.
It's hard for two people to love each other when
they live in two different worlds...but when these
two worlds collide and become one, that's what
you call magic! 

Love can never be so beautiful without
friendship...one leads to another and the
process is irreversible...the best of lovers is the
greatest of friends!!! I like you because you're my
friend, and because you are my friend I care, and
because I care, I love you. I don't love you
because you are my friend; I love you because I
do!

Food for thought, think of this..
Have you really cared for someone more than
you expected?
Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of
all the pain?
Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she
whispers someone else's name? Will you???
It's better to lose your pride with someone you
love rather than lose that someone you love with
your useless pride.

"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had?
Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine?
Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why
I love someone who's love was never mine?"
Isn't it funny we're trying to catch
the attention of the one we think we love; we
hardly notice the one we're really looking for was
just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the
arms of someone else...

True love hears what is not spoken, and
understands what is not explained, for
love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in
the heart...

When you love someone, don't expect that
person to love you back the same amount. One of
you will be ahead, the other behind. It's either you
catch up or the other waits. When you love, you
must not accept anything in return, for if you do,
you're not loving but Investing. If you love, you must
prepare to accept pain, for if you expect
happiness, you're not loving but using...

Sometimes I've asked myself, what would
make me happy?
To think that I have everything else, I get what I
want... then I realized it was YOU,
too bad 'cause it's you can't have... I can't choose
who I'm gonna love, but I also can't just love who
chooses to love me...and you can't blame me in
choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you
for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't
love me the way you loved the one before me,
so I'll let you go to find him/her and hope
someday you'll see that the one true love you're
looking for was the one who set you free...


Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer
you stay the harder it is to leave...and you can
never go without leaving your prints behind...
Don't love a person like a flower, because a
flower dies in season. Love them like a river
because a river flows forever...
Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'cause
love doesn't have to end at all.

Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it
may give you aches and pains, but if you don't
follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more
for not giving love a chance ;Love may leave your
heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that
there's someone who'll be willing to endure the
pain of picking up the pieces so you could be
whole again"

The cruelest thing a guy could do to a girl is to
let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch
her fall!!

   I'm soo tired today... had to do ma IPPT in the mornin and afta that i really can't be bothered with werk.. juz did what i can and rested when i can.. have not been eatin much these days.. during lunch, i'll juz go in the mess and sleep..

  Been feelin rather alone lately... talked to a few frens of mine... but they all say the same thing.. get a girl.. go out enjoy.. that's all... i know that.. but get a girl? aaathey think it's that easy.. i'm not blessed with the looks or charm or sweettalkin.. so it's rather hard for me...

  I have been widenin ma circle of frens but... still.. didn't go much.. i'm still chill.. but sometimes it juz gets tha betta of me.. especially when i'm alone or daydreamin.. even if i'm outside or havin fun.. it'll suddenly creep into ma mind.. and i get all moody...

  I juz feel like i need sumone in ma life.. sumone who'll be there for me... who needs me as much as i need them... sumone who i can be maself with.. sumone who'll be in ma mind.. who i can feel complete with.. ya get what i mean.. it may sound pathetic.. it may sound desperate.. but.. i don't know.. i'm usually not like this.. it's just a sudden feelin.. i juz follow ma heart.. but i wont let it get the best of me..

  There are perks and flaws in bein a relationship... havin to be commited and all.. i'm also not very fond of the flaws.. but... but... nahhh.. dont' know...

  May the stars twinkle down on ya and be with ya all night.. Honey glazed dreams...

  Kheheh.. I went to Caldecott Hill Mediacorp to catch the Fiesta Komedi... We had advice from a couple of our frens on how to get there.. but finally went to Toa Payoh and took 157..  Terlepas the bus stop and we stopped the next one... punya lah jauh.. we crossed the heavy heavy traffic.. and stuck at the divider.. Lin was soo scared.. she was panicin.. the hard part was gettin past the divider.. if it's a normal one, it's okay.. this one, the divider, the normal grey metal rail was at a higher level.. i decided to go under it.. but Lin the shorter one (Khehe) decided to go over it.. how she diddit oso i dont know.. but she did ah.. but she got her hands all black with dirt.. HAHA.. and i was clean.. ya shud have seen her face.. so scared.. like she wanted to cry.. coz all the cars in first lane.. the right one were moving very fast.. and quite near to the divider..

   We caught the show "Pernikahan Diatu"... It starred Zaibo, Aaron Aziz adalah lagi.. Quite funny ah.. with the pantun2 all... And the girls.. the voice all so meluat.. khehe.. the ten dollars were worth it lah.. i wont mind gettin more to catch the other shows.. but nevermind lah.. I think the 5 shows are gonna be aired in TV soon ah.. after the show ended around 9.30.. we took 93 back to Eunos.. Ate Mutton Chop there.. not that nice but okay lah.. dah lama tak makan,hilang kempunan... the mutton quite tough.. after that sent her home and came home.. to catch ma soccer.. Liverpool leading Norwich 2-0 at half time... Here comes the second half.. buhbye..

  G'nyte everyone..

   Today seems like a normal day... well, it is.. except for the few bits of incidents which make life much more worth living... Ahahah...

   First off, in tha mornin.. i played soccer at the cage.. as per usual with ma peeps and all.. played okay but.. i can't tell ya how much i got "lobang-ed" juz now... i think around 10 times.. even by ma own teammate... and i fell down i think a few times.. then went home i tried to go to tha barber at bedok but i can't seem to find one.. so i went home.. besides it was already rainin..

   This is tha start of things... once reachin home.. i juz straight away went to ma bed and lay down.. watched a malay drama.. then i fell asleep... i was sleepin when ma mum went in ma room.. she wanted to talk to me and sat beside me on ma bed.. Suddenly KHeeEeRrEeEPooWWwW~!!!!! my bed collapsed... tha cardboard panel below gave way... and ma mum and me were stuck in the bed frame.. then my mum laughed.. I got so worked up.. as they say "Never disturb a man when he's sleepin" so i started to get angry with her.. sayin that her ass is too heavy all that.. then both of us fixed back the bed.. iwas sooo pissed.. but now, when i think about it, it was pretty hilarious.. khehe..

   i woke up and bathed so that i can go cut my hair and have my picture taken.. i needed tha passport sized pis for ma camp pass tomoro.. and Lin agreed to accompany me.. i took ma bike and proceeded.. Lin came around 20 minits after finished cuttin.. but it's okay.. i walked around a bit.. after she came.. we went and took tha photos.. we actually looked at a chocolate cookbook at The Big Bookshop before goin to take the pics.. i got so hungry.. well, not exactly.. the pics in the cookbook made me yearn for em.. so after taking tha photos, we went searchin for bread or pastry.. bought quite a lot.. a BIG muak Chocoball, choco waffles, choco puffs liddat, choco bread and a cheese crabstick bread.. and slurpee from 7-11.. her mum's favourite..

   We decided to go void deck to eat and chill.. she "tumpang-ed" my bike.. and she was soo scared.. tha way she seated oso was so unstable.. had difficulties steerin tha thing.. and all the way she was shoutin "Sakit~~ Sakit~~ Takut~~ Takut~~ Laju sgt~~ EEeee~~ Takut~~ Nak tutup mata~~ I nak turun~~ Nak turun~~" and many other stuffs she shouted.. khkhehehekhehek... so cute siak.. liddat oso scared.. cos she sat wrongly that's why unstable.. gundu btul ah dier.. khehe.. then we chilled at tha void deck and ate.. everything was a disappointment except my Cheese Crabstick bread and the slurpee.. lain semua merepek.. talked a while more after eatin.. then i tickled her at her feet.. she was shoutin like mad.. but now she msged me she said actually she's not that ticklish.. it's okay.. i can try it again another time.. HAHAHAH~!!!!
then i send her to the bus stop 69.. this time she sat at the back.. this time round betta gak.. khehe.. after i went home ah..


   After her bus came.. i went home and hear i am typing to ya.. anyways.. yah.. G'nyte.. ;P

  Wow... been some time since i posted an entry here... life's been the same.. about my NS life.. well, to tell ya tha truth.. it's quite okay there.. tha people are friendly and tha master and officer.. tho they look fierce and talk a lot.. a lot of cock.. fun cock.. and sometimes they ova do it... they raelly look out for their men.. khehe..

   Yesterday, i had a taste of things to come.. i went to Mandai camp.. tha place where i'm gonna be at.. ma permanent unit will i ORD.. till 120406... and it's soo daym far.. but luckily, another fren of maine who stays in Tampines is also posted there.. tho he's unit is 2 SIB, it's still in Mandai.. so everyday i'll be "tumpangin" him to and fro... Lucky sia.. we're all under CMW and it's me, Azmi, Ayie, Cik and Lin... okay lah.. at least i'm not alone.. but when it comes to exercises.. i'm still alone.. but it's okay.. it's a five day week work.. I get to stay out.. Book it and out in civilian..

   I still got guard duty.. but that's one thing that i can't get away with.. but thing is i'll be doin tha guard duty at Nee Soon Camp.. it's okay lah...

   It's official.. i'm officially dead... i got posted to 1SIR.. it's tha most champion of champion siao on infantry camp... and i havta go outfield... and i havta run with them... and i have to fix vehicles in tha jungle with ma SBO, rifle and helmet on... and i havta stay in... and it's at Mandai~!!!

   Sigh... what's happenin.. i havta do all that till i ORD ard April 2006.. and no one else is posted to that camp.. i'm alone.. Fuck.. well, can't do anythin much now.. i'll just havta go there on Friday and check it out for maself.. see what i'm really into.. maybe i'll get a few good surprises.. but in tha meantime i'm just gonna expect the worst.. I'm really not in a very good mood now..

   I played ping pong yesterday~~!!! it's been quite sometime... really enjoyed it.. i met black and pie.. black brought the set.. and we set off in search of a table.. but it seems that all over Tampines.. there's no ping pong table~~!! tha void decks that used to have them were gone.. i guess people nowadays dont play ping pong anymore.. what a pity... Lastly, we went to tha Sport Council and booked a ping pong table... khehe.. fun fun fun...

   in tha mornin, i played soccer at the cage.. tha usual place... it felt good to be wit tha boys... been a long time since i saw them.. played soccer... i fell down alotta time coz it was rainin and it was wearin ma Jack Purcells..